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While everyone else is getting ready for a friday night out.
I'm sitting here wondering if I should start waxing my legs instead of shaving them?
-and also wondering what kind of clients I'm gonna get tonight.
I hope there's at least a dinnerdate or an outcall to a hotel.
It's weird not having regulars anymore... You never know who's waiting or what they expect from you.
-but it probably won't be long before I have regulars again.


I often wonder what goes through a clients mind, the moment before they open their door and see me for the first time.
-it's not something you ask about over a glass of champagne.


Something which has nothing to do with waxing legs or asking strange questions over champagne, is my X ( I'm going to call him X from now on). Him and I have had a rather complicated relationship for while. We've been seeing each other after we've broken up and all in all it's been great, but things have gotten "little" blargh since he discovered what I do.
I was actually planning on telling him, but I wanted to be sure he could handle it.
Had it turned that he couldn't, then I would have never told him and basically just stopped seeing him.
-I'm not one those girls who just do it behind their partners back.


Anyway, he found out before I had the chance to tell him and at this point I had only had one dinnerdate (and NO sex).
Well shit hit fan and things have been rather awkward since.


I can't figure out wether he's trying to punish me, by playing hard to get and making plans with friends instead of seeing me, or if he just can't figure out, whether or not he can accept what I do.


Time will tell that I know... I guess I'm just not the patient type.